Thursday, November 30, 2006

Wonderful Mother


My mom only had one eye. I hated her... she was such an embarrassment. My mom ran a small shop at a flea market. She collected little weeds and such to sell...anything for the money that we needed, she was such an embarrassment.There was this one day during elementary school. I remember that it was field day, and my mom came. I was so embarrassed. How could she do this to me? I threw her a hateful look and ran out. The next day at school..."Your mom only has one eye?!" and they taunted me. I wished that my mom would just disappear from this world, so I said to my mom, "Mom, why don't you have the other eye?! You're only going to make me a laughingstock. Why don't you just die?" My mom did not respond. I guess I felt a little bad, but at the same time, it felt good to think that I had said what I'd wanted to say all this time. Maybe it was because my mom hadn't punished me, but I didn't think that I had hurt her feelings very badly. That night...I woke up, and went to the kitchen to get a glass of water. My mom was crying there, so quietly, as if she was afraid that she might wake me. I took a look at her, and then turned away.Because of the thing I had said to her earlier, there was something pinching at me in the corner of my heart. Even so, I hated my mother who was crying out of her one eye. So I told myself that I would grow up and become successful, because I hated my one-eyed mom and our desperate poverty. Then I studied really hard. I left my mother and came to Seoul and studied, and got accepted in the Seoul University with all the confidence I had. Then, I got married. I bought a house of my own. Then I had kids, too. Now I'm living happily as a successful man.
I like it here because it's a place that doesn't remind me of my mom. This happiness was getting bigger and bigger, when someone unexpected came to see me "What?! Who's this?!" ...It was my mother...Still with her one eye. It felt as if the whole sky was falling apart on me. My little girl ran away, scared of my mom's eye. And I asked her, "Who are you? I don't know you!!!" as if he trying to make that real. I screamed at her "How dare you come to my house and scare my daughter! GET OUT OF HERE! NOW!!!" And to this, my mother quietly answered, "oh, I'm so sorry. I may have gotten the wrong address," and she disappeared. Thank good ness... she doesn't recognize me. I was quite relieved. I told myself that I wasn't going to care, or think about this for the rest of my life. Then a wave of relief came upon me...one day, a letter regarding a school reunion came to my house. I lied to my wife saying that I was going on a business trip. After the reunion, I went down to the old shack, that I used to call a house...just out of curiosity there, I found my mother fallen on the cold ground. But I did not shed a single tear. She had a piece of paper in her hand.... it was a letter to me. She wrote: My son... I think my life has been long enough now. And... I won't visit Seoulanymore... but would it be too much to ask if I wanted you to come visitme once in a while? I miss you so much. And I was so glad when I heardyou were coming for the reunion. But I decided not to go to theschool.... For you... I'm sorry that I only have one eye, and I was anembarrassment for you. You see, when you were very little, you got into an accident, and lost your eye. As a mother, I couldn't stand watchingyou having to grow up with only one eye... so I gave you mine...I wasso proud of my son that was seeing a whole new world for me, in myplace, with that eye. I was never upset at you for anything you did. Thecouple times that you were angry with me. I thought to myself, 'it'sbecause he loves me.' I miss the times when you were still young aroundme. I miss you so much. I love you. You mean the world to me
My world shattered!!! Then I cried for the person who lived for me... My MOTHER A WONDERFUL MOTHER.GOD made a wonderful mother,A mother who never grows old;He made her smile of the sunshine,And He molded her heart of pure gold;In her eyes He placed bright shining stars,In her cheeks, fair roses you see;God made a wonderful mother,And He gave that dear mother to me

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

h crap i'm in tears, just kidding that is such a touching story "wonderful mother" very suprising at the end. thank you for sharing that with me.

daniel Le

Anonymous said...

wow! thanks for sharing, and posting on my blog.

S.Hamid said...

It is a touching story , thanx Monther

linda said...

it's a touching story,it's a tragity oh god how mouther could be so loving like that?
and insted of beeing so thankful he was so bad to her ,he killed her by his actions ..

my god ! i felt so bad for her .

if i were her i would punch him for his enternety


thank u brother for sharinf this